A 41/5 Solar Return Declaration + Reflection
Ẹ kú ọjọ́ ìbí ooo! (to me!)
Today, April 27, 2023 is my 41st birthday. Depending on how one sees it, I either ended my almost 41st revolution around the Sun (if we count my beingness at conception) or am beginning my next trip. Either way (and really, it’s both), it is a crossroad—a time, space, and place where multiple dimensions of me and those material and ethereal beings that I’m connected to collide.
It’s all a permission slip.
Our physical material incarnate lives are opportunities for our spirit/soul/oversoul to play [out] and move [through] whatever there is for us as the fragment of The All That Is to do so in order for it to know itself more fully.
At 41 (4 + 1 = 5…more on that further below)…
I see me
I love me
I be me
I support me
I release(d) heaviness in order to be light
I release(d) a focus on the darkness and now sit in the center where I neutrally see the spectrum of vibration.
I release(d) ideas of scarcity and lack, and am basking in the abundance within and outside of me…in all of its forms.
I release(d) bitterness, anger, and sadness in order to more fully see, be in, and bring sweetness and happiness—no, joy…a state that reaches deeper and further.
I release(d) beliefs of diminished or non-existent worth to more fully ground in the knowing that to even question this about myself is a slap in the face to Existence. I’m here, period.
I release(d) the behavior of collapsing into and being immobilized by fear and instead drop into an ocean of courage to face what comes head on.
I release(d) guilt and shame which allow me to sit in compassion and grace knowing that I do my best, and even when not, I can learn from all choices I make in any direction.
I release(d) stagnation and rigidity in order to swim flow and flexibility…all currents lead back to the path of me.
I release(d) struggle, strife, and contention to allow myself to rest in more all encompassing ease, peace, and harmony.
I release(d) disconnection and discombobulating which gives me the ability to walk in this world as a whole, healed, and integrated being.
I release(d) that which I have allowed to obstruct my voice so that I may sing the song of my soul more fully and clearly.
I release(d) all that is not me so that all that is left is who I truly am.
I am grateful for all that Olodumare did for me yesterday, is doing for me today, and will do for me tomorrow should I be blessed with the opportunity to be here.
And either way my spirit is eternally here.
Àṣẹ
And more…
…5 Got Itself on Me…
This year is my 5 year. I’m choosing to see it as a powerful Ọ̀ṣun year for me. 2023 made it known early on that it’s my Year of the [Re]Emerging Artist.
It all makes sense for me:
⭐️ 5 is the number Ọ̀ṣun manifests in…
⭐️I turn 41 this month (on a day that happens to fall on one of the days we honor Ọ̀ṣun in the Ìfá calendar)…
⭐️ This year is the 5th anniversary of the ending of my job in “Corporate America”…
Ọ̀ṣun is one of the ọ̀rìṣà that deals with the arts…I mean, really, she IS the arts…creative energy…that which is cultivated in and birthed from our womb-space, sacral chakra—literally, symbolically…on all levels.
I have shed so much of what never served the creative artists of me, and have made peace with and shifted into gratitude about what I did need to experience and work through to provide support for them (even if it didn’t seem related). My ori is such a planner and strategist y’all—more Ọ̀ṣun traits 😏
Over the last several years, and since my initiation in particular, I have grounded into a deeper awareness of who Ọ̀ṣun truly is beyond limited interpretations, odd depictions, and straight up misunderstandings and misrepresentation.
As a result/simultaneously I am sitting in/recognizing the deliciousness of who I am beyond the fraction that others see, consider, or understand.
Going from having “issues” with Ọ̀ṣun/not remembering who I was to being where I am now is such a sweet transformation! (If you haven’t already, read my blog post about this). I look forward to the fruits of much labor—my own and others who support(ed) me.
Ọ̀ṣun brings me joy…is enough as my joy…feels joy with and through me…
She reminds me that [my] life is a work of art.
She got me. I got me. Life got me. I wouldn’t be here otherwise.
I pray you know and feel that you are *got* in all the ways and that you are beautiful.
_______________
PS…
Ẹ ku ọjọ ìbí = the Yorùbá expression for Happy Birthday.
Ẹ ku = said to express happiness/celebration about an activity, a specific time frame (i.e. day, month, year, holiday)
ọjọ = day
ìbí = birth
Olodumare = roughly translates to “God” in Yorùbá
5 Got Itself on Me section originally posted on our Instagram page (@onyi.love) on April 18, 2023 and synchronistically paired with this blog post on April 27 (18 = 9, 27 = 9….9 is the number of transformation, the ending of cycles, amongst other things)
Read more about Onyi’s journey with Ọ̀ṣun in the blog post Blooming Into {the Ọ̀ṣun of} Me
Image credits: Acid Smile Studios (1 & 3/Top & Bottom); Matty Polizzi (2 / center)
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